being pregnant

Being pregnant is sort of weird.

You find out that you’re growing a tiny human in your belly, you go through a several week  long period of time where you have a serious revulsion to food you would normally be able to eat, you grow out of your bras almost immediately, and then all of a sudden, out of literally nowhere, you have this enormous belly (that feels enormous even if it doesn’t really look like it is).

So yeah, sort of weird.

On the other hand, pregnancy is sort of cool too.

I mean, it’s not every day that you literally get to GROW A HUMAN BEING from stuff that has been inside you since before you were born. It’s not every day that you go to the doctor and hear two heart beats- one your own and the other someone totally different but still yours. AND it’s not every day that you get to feel little flutters that turn into powerful jabs, from right under your stretched shirt!

That being said, today I want to share some of my favorite and least favorite things about being 1-20 weeks pregnant. I’ll start with least favorite.

10 Least Favorite Things About Being Pregnant

1. Morning sickness
For me, morning sickness ended somewhere in week 11. There were a few days in week 12 that I didn’t feel super well, but for the most part, waking up every morning and feeling more nauseous than I’d ever been before was a horror that both started and ended during the first trimester for me. Fortunately I only actually puked a handful of times, but feeling like your stomach is in knots and eating goldfish for 8 weeks is not the most fun part of pregnancy.

2. Hunger
With this I’m taking about waking up at 3am feeling like you haven’t eaten in 4 days, and having to make your way to the kitchen for something quick to eat so you can get back to sleep. I don’t know if this happens to everyone, but during the first trimester I woke up in the middle of almost every night needing food. The one time I tried to ignore the hunger and go back to sleep was the only time I did it because it ended up making me feel so sick that I felt I couldn’t eat and then I was hungry and nauseous- two things you don’t want to be at the same time.

3. Mood Swings
It’s not an excuse, dude. Mood swings are REAL. Being fine one second and crying over almost nothing the next is something that occurs often. I also found myself getting frustrated/irritable much more quickly and crying about nothing. For example, on Christmas day I left my dad’s house and went home to change before having dinner with Nick’s parents, and in the process of changing set my phone down on my bed. It somehow fell off the bed and ended up on the floor. I was already late and after searching frantically for 3 minutes started bawling because I knew I had it but couldn’t find it…and then I found it and felt totally stupid for crying over something minuscule.

4. Weird Dreams
This doesn’t necessarily have to go on the “dislike” list, but after 19 weeks of the strangest shit coming into my head while I’m sleeping, I’m kind of tired of waking up thinking, “what in the hell did I smoke before bed?” For some reason when you’re pregnant you tend to dream more often, or perhaps just remember your dreams better, and I’m telling you they are almost never normal. A few nights ago I dreamt that I was back in school and Tomi Lahren was my substitute teacher. Needless to say, I walked out of the classroom immediately…can’t trust a thing that chick says.

5. Being Itchy
Perhaps I feel itchy all the time because its February and I have dry skin due to the crappy weather, but I think it also has something to do with hormones and the oil of my skin changing and the fact that everything seems to be stretching- boobs, butt and belly. There is nothing more annoying than laying down to go to sleep and feeling like you have to claw your legs off just to stop the crawling feeling.

6. Acne
So obviously with pregnancy comes hormonal changes, and some women experience clearer skin while pregnant than they had before, but that’s not been the case with me. For the last year or so I’ve had very clean, clear complexion, but around 6 weeks pregnant and all the way to about 18 weeks I couldn’t do anything to keep my face from breaking out. I’m glad that things have finally returned to normal and am praying every day that the clear, glowy skin I have now sticks around.

7. Smells
Just like mood swings, this is not made up. When you become pregnant you really can smell everything. In some cases this is wonderful, like when Nick makes coffee, and I can smell it full force and it relieves my craving for caffeine through those delicious beans. In other ways it’s the worst, like when you’re in the break room at work trying to enjoy your lunch and someone comes in with their fish sticks and makes the whole room smell like ass.

8. Weak Stomach
What I mean by this is not being able to tolerate things that didn’t used to bother me. For example, watching game of thrones or the saw movies, and cleaning up dog puke. For some reason, since I became pregnant my stomach is too weak to handle these things, and I find myself gaging at Ned Stark’s head being chopped off, and at the sight of dog vomit (let alone trying to clean it up).

9. Restrictions
I hate not being able to clean the cat litter.
I hate not being able to lift a 5 gallon bucket of paint at work and asking for help to do so.
I hate getting out of breath just carrying groceries up the stairs.
I hate not being able to sleep on my stomach.
I hate the pains I get in my sides and lower abdomen and the discomfort in general. Just laying flat on my back feels tight and painful and uncomfortable.
I hate getting sick three times since I became pregnant because my immune system blows right now. (All obviously small prices to pay for the miracle of children)

10. Vitamins
Vitamins are gross, so I’ve been taking the gummy ones which taste a lot better, but at the same time it’s really hard to remember to take them. And when I don’t I feel like a terrible person because I worry too much about what health defects can occur due to lack of nutrients etc etc.

10 Favorite Things About Being Pregnant

1. Ultrasounds
I love the ultrasound appointments. Because of the complications we had in the very beginning we got to have a few more ultrasounds than women typically have while pregnant. Seeing that little baby up on that screen wiggling all around is literally the coolest thing I have ever seen in my life. The first time I got to see it I remember thinking how weird it was, but also crying because it was so amazing. If I could but ultrasound equipment and have it in my house I would use it every day to say hi to our growing baby.

2. Baby Stuff
Not kidding. I love looking at baby stuff. Imagining a nursery and pinning projects for that baby room is one of the most fun things to do. I love researching baby items and finding cool things that I can see being useful once the baby is here.

3. Hunger
This was a least favorite too, but honestly, where I’m at in my pregnancy now I get to eat so much more often, and I can actually eat a decent amount of food, whereas in the beginning I could barely eat one full bowl of mac and cheese. And cravings aren’t annoying either. I’ve been craving cottage cheese, rolos, and italian dressing on salad. Being able to eat often means I get to eat all kinds of delicious food and know that it isn’t for nothing, but that it’s sustaining the life of my baby. It makes eating regular meals and healthy foods even more enjoyable.

4. Movement
Today was the first day Nick and I POSITIVELY got to feel the baby moving. We were laying in bed this morning since we both have today off. We were just talking, his hand was on my belly and my hands weren’t but we both felt the movement at the same time and looked at each other and said in unison, “did you feel that?!” and we knew someone was wiggling all over in there.

5. Hair/Nails
I look at my photo from week 10, just two and a half months ago, and I can see that my hair has grown much more than it does during a regular 2.5 months. In addition to that, my nails are prettier and longer than ever.

6. Naps
I love naps. Being pregnant means I have a reason to take them more. Need I say more?

7. Photos
Taking photos of my growing belly has become something that I really look forward to every week. It’s so interesting to me to see the changes that occur over time in order to allow for a baby to grow. Learning about what is happening to the baby during each week and what is happening to me each week and taking a photo to go with those changes and mark that part of the transition is an incredibly interesting way to document pregnancy.

8. Talking to my Mom
Another thing I love about being pregnant is sharing the experience, especially with my mom, because she’s been the most excited person for me besides me. Listening to her tell me stories about when I was a baby and learning all kinds of tips and advice from her about having babies is something I’ve really enjoyed since becoming pregnant.

9. Planning Parties
Being pregnant means feeling excited, and parties mean sharing that excitement with others. Planning my gender reveal party has been so much fun, and I know that my mom is enjoying it as much as I am. Being able to plan for these important events like revealing the gender of our baby is such a special thing to experience with people who mean so much to me, and will mean just as much to my baby.

10. Opportunity
Maybe what I love most about being pregnant is having the opportunity to create another life and be an influence to that life in a way I’ve never been to anything else before. Being pregnant means having the opportunity to do things I’ve never done before. Creating a miracle is nothing to take lightly. I think the thing I love most about being pregnant is BEING PREGNANT and knowing that that means bringing a life into the world.

So there they are, 10 least and most favorite things about being 1-20 weeks pregnant. I have to say that the favorite things easily outweigh the least favorites. When I do this again for weeks 21-40 we’ll see if I’m singing a different tune.

I have a couple special surprises for those who are interested in my pregnancy, something I’m having done this weekend and another thing I’m starting at week 20 and I’m so excited to announce what it is! Stay tuned, there’s more to come this week…